My life is constantly filled with lessons. I learn, I shift, I feel like I am doing better, then another one hits me. Some of these lessons have come into my life over and over again. I believe that I move past them and become a “better” version of myself, only to learn that lesson again, in a different way.
I guess today it has finally hit me to talk about “deceit” and how it can destroy ANY relationship with me. It simply does not work. Over the last several years I have been working hard to be good, to be great, to help someone anytime, anywhere, for anything at all, if it is in regards to what I do at my personal business.
I know that I had gotten in the habit of trusting everyone. Not judging anyone that came to me for help, or for questions, or for guidance. Often not charging people what I was worth, because I believed I was helping and they needed some guidance that I have the ability to provide. I gave away everything. or at little cost so that someone could experience the healing and the insights that I could share with them.
I feel that I became so overly “open” to helping others, that I did not tune into my intuition. I did this on purpose. I would go in to my energetic body and mind, and shut everything off. I would shut my connection down so I remained totally open and loving. I thought this was the right thing to do.
But recently I’ve been pushed, on purpose, to realize that this is no longer appropriate for me. How did this happen to help me realize this? I’m going to start with the less hurtful example first.
1.) I’ve gone back into the corporate world, into a role where I am REQUIRED to judge people. LOL, this is a really hard pill for me to swallow, but I am doing it and I pray that I am learning something from it.
I have to judge someone in the way they interact with me, the way they answer my questions, the responsiveness via emails and phone calls. I have to judge the way they speak, if they show the desire that I am looking for, and if they go above and beyond. I used to do this exceptionally well, and it is a work in progress for me now. I have no doubt that I can perform this job really well, and some of it may be because I DO have the ability to tune in from a different awareness and level, to help me make my decisions. I simply have to put this all back to work!
2.) The more hurtful learning I have done ties back in to the word “deceit” in my title. I had someone that I really liked and had considered sort of a friend. When she came to me, asking for a healing session, and asking for insights and guidance, and including herself in my card pulls and things of that nature, I didn’t really look too much into it.
However, I have since become aware that I do not believe that “healing” was her initial intent. It was to scope out how I do what I do, what my space looks like, and what I charge. I provided a lot of information, through the belief that I was helping. Unfortunately for me I now understand that I was simply sharing my knowledge to be used in a very similar, if not the exact same way. They say copying is flattery, but it is pure deceit to me and I do not accept it.
BY THE WAY – There is absolutely enough to go around for everyone in this entire world, and in this entire spiritual realm of people looking to be healers. There is never a lack, unless it is an underlying belief system, and I promise you that I understand that well. BUT EACH PERSON NEEDS TO FIND THEIR OWN WAY, NOT DO WHAT EVERYONE ELSE IS DOING, and especially not by trying to do what I can do. Honestly, let’s not talk about manifestation until we are all okay in our minds and the underlying issues of it. It’s a fucking waste of time.
Deceit never works when you are looking for someone to lean on.. When you are looking for someone who is similar to you to connect with. By doing this, you will work with people who are in a similar vibration to yourself. I however, will work out of a much more highly attuned vibration and I will not be taken advantage of again.
I will be completely open with anyone if they are open with me. So the moral(s) of some of my current lessons are:
- Do what you are guided to at any given time. Just know, that when you feel you have mastered something, you may have to learn it all over again in a completely different way.
- Breathe through things. When you feel like you are a mess and like you can’t take it anymore, focus on your breath. Know that this won’t last forever, and soon it will be gone.
- Please don’t lie to yourself, to me, or to others that you are looking to help you. It will get you nowhere. If you are dealing with me, I don’t care how much I want to help you, I will cut off all communication with you.
- Pay attention to your vibration. Don’t let those in that hurt you. Work from a higher place. Know that if you don’t understand this now, when there is a lesson you need to focus on, you will.
- Still send out love and attempt to forgive those people that have been deceitful or hurt you. Fill yourself up with love then expand that energy out and send blessings. You are better than anything lower that you. Show it.
Sending you light and love on this beautiful Sunday!!! If you need anything please let me know! Tiffany@holistichealthways.com!